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"I learned a new thing in school yesterday," Rahman declared the next
day as Silent Her entered her brother's toy room. The television
screen showed a fanged cartoon Imahnti chasing a little boy. "It's
very rude. It was my good friend Akil Numair who taught me."
Silent Her squatted on the floor beside Rahman and looked up at his
face with adoring eyes. What care had she for the risks of leaving
the female wing if she could only be in the presence of her brother?
"What is a school?" she signed.
The boy sneered and cocked his head in a show of extreme indifference
as he pressed a button lowering the sound from the television screen.
The cartoon boy was hiding behind a tree and the cartoon Imahnti was
leafing through a little blue book to try and find the boy. All of
the woodland creatures thought the Imahnti was very stupid for
looking in a book instead of behind the tree.
"What is a school?" repeated Rahman. "It's a place where I am forced
to go six days a week to learn mountains of stuff I will likely never
use again. I envy you not having to go to school."
"I would love to go to school if I could learn."
"It is forbidden. Besides, you wouldn't want to go if you had to go.
Believe me. School is deadly dull and the masters are very mean. But
watch what my friend Akil taught me."
Rahman's brow furrowed in a frown as he seemed to gulp at the air
after the manner of a fish out of water. He gulped and gulped again,
then he was still for a moment. At the end of his silence he let
forth with a belch whose magnitude rivaled that of Majnun's gas
attacks. Rahman did it again and laughed out loud when he saw how
hard Silent Her was laughing.
"Here," he said at last. "I must stop laughing if I am to show you
what else Akil taught me." He took a deep breath, laughed again, and
took another deep breath. When he had calmed himself down, he
swallowed more air, then belched, but this time he formed a word with
his mouth. "Jamil!" he growled.
They both laughed at the sound, and when they had calmed down, Silent
Her signed to her brother, "Show me how to make a burp. It's such
fun. Show me how. Please."
"I don't know if you can learn it. It took me a great deal of time."
"Please."
Rahman shrugged again. "First you swallow a lot of air, and be sure
to hold it down. Do it like this." Rahman swallowed some air and let
forth a tiny burp.
Silent Her tried several times, but she couldn't seem to develop the
knack. "Perhaps females cannot do this."
"Oh, they can too," Rahman corrected. "Akil Numair taught one of his
sisters to burp and she was better at it even than he." Rahman
frowned and thought for a long time.
"Brother, will you show me again?"
"No." He shook his head slowly and looked with care at his sister.
"Akil taught his sister to do it. She even made a word with her burp.
Someone caught them. She was beaten for learning and Akil was beaten
for teaching her. I don't think it is something God wants." He shook
his head and glowered at his immature manhood having to knuckle under
to overwhelming authority. "This is something it might be best to
forget."
Silent Her looked at the television screen in time to see the fanged
Imahnti have a bright light appear over its head. It put away its
little blue book and reached beneath a rock where everyone, including
the little boy, knew the little boy wasn't hiding. The Imahnti
withdrew its appendage, dragging the little boy from beneath the rock
by his collar. The boy screamed, broke loose, and the fanged alien
streaked after him. The boy's name was Koko. The Imahnti's name was
Fuzzy.
· · · · ·
"Onan, there are sorry changes in the wind," warned Nabil with a
grave voice. He was sitting at the kitchen table sipping at a cup of
abanush. "Keep my words in the front of your mind. In a matter of
days we could all find ourselves begging scraps from the workhouse
women."
"Bah!" answered the cook from the depths of the kettle he was
inspecting. The scrub girl, Joina, stood off to one side, her gaze
cast down, respectfully awaiting Onan's judgment. Si smiled at the
boom of the cook's voice. With his head inside the pot his voice had
become deep and powerful. It sounded the way she imagined the voice
of Alilah had sounded those many thousands of years ago when He told
Noah He would destroy the father planet.
Onan withdrew his head from the pot, nodded his satisfaction to the
scrub girl, and handed the heavy kettle to her to hang with the
others as Silent Her crept between the ranges to her safe place.
"Nabil," began the cook, "the way you worry, it's a wonder the
priests haven't put you in a taffy house and wired you up to a few
volts. By the Founders, after that you'd see the light."
She leaned against the wall, pulled off her veil, and placed her hand
inside her pocket. Withdrawing the tiny blue book, she opened it and
looked at the curious marks on the first page.
Huroot Ib had been reciting "The Shaytan." Perhaps the booklet was
his copy of The Book of Peace. But then why did Fuzzy, the
cartoon Imahnti, look in his little blue book to find Koko? And when
he found Koko, why was the boy in a place where no one expected him
to be, including Koko?
At the head of the first page were two groups of marks set off from
the rest. Perhaps they were the marks that represented "The Shaytan"
in man-writing.
A cup was placed upon the kitchen table with a heavy hand. "Scoff at
me if you wish, Onan, but I watch the news. I hear what's between the
words."
"What do you hear?" The cook laughed as he poured himself a cup of
the buttered tea and sat down at the table. "Or should I ask, what do
you think you hear?"
While the cook and the head servant talked, Silent Her studied the
two groups of marks in the center of the page. The first group had
thirteen of the forbidden writing letters. The second group had four
letters. If it was "The Shaytan," the first group was too many for
"the" and the second much too few for "Shaytan."
Nabil's voice became loud. "Laugh if you want, Onan, but perch this
between your eyes. The 'doxies are gathering enough support to make a
coalition possible"
"It will never happen," interrupted the cook.
"If they do gain control of the government, Joram won't join the
world congress. If we don't join, no one joins, and if no one joins,
no one disarms. In such a case it's only a matter of time before we
are once more looking for prophets to follow and wading through
blood."
"Exactly my point, Nabil. No one wants war, so no one wants the
return of the orthodoxy. So where's the threat?"
"The threat is right here in Joram, Onan. The Reformists are hanging
on to power right now only because Mikael Yucel keeps promising moons
to the splinter parties he cannot deliver. If the splinter parties
grow cold on Yucel, Tahir Ranon and the 'doxies will have all of us in
a bloody choke loop."
"Look at what you are saying. The Reformists haven't lost an election
for over twelve years."
"That was before Joram's army tangled with Bahai," Nabil reminded.
"What does that change?"
"Here's what it changes, my smug friend, safe and secure in your
little kitchen. What if the people of Joram become convinced there
will be a war? They're going to think twice before keeping the
Reformists in. When it comes to a fight, people feel safer with the
'doxies running things. It's the Orthodox Party that knows how to call
a jihad."
"By the Christ, Nabil, break that wind before your eyeballs explode."
"We'll see. We'll see."
The pair fell into silence as the girl continued to study the marks.
Frontwards, backwards, one at a time, the words made no sense without
the key. Man-writing had far too many letters in it. A thought teased
at her frustration. What if the booklet wasn't in man-writing at all?
What if it was in Imahnti?
"Jihad," spat Onan. "Don't the 'doxies just love that ancient curse?"
"They do that."
"I cannot imagine the people going for it again. That last holy war
of the 'doxies was one hell of a bloody mess. Don't you remember?
Every family had out the black weeds."
"Of course."
"Many others do as well, my friend. The 'doxies are finished. Consider
it written."
"Consider it written," scoffed Nabil. "Read to me from your
fortune-telling book, fuzzywriggle."
"Nabil, I saw the horror of the Jihad on the screens. My father was
in the war and he told me of things much worse than those that made
it into the news. The ''doxies had their damned Mujtahidun performing
atrocity after atrocity until the army itself rebelled, attacked the
fanatics, and put an end to the fighting. Duman Amin was there. He
can tell you. Ask Jamil. He was Duman's sergeant."
"Many don't remember the war, Onan. That's all I'm saying. A whole
new generation has grown."
"What about history, Nabil? What about memory?"
"History is dead to those who haven't lived it, and in politics an
accurate memory is not a tool of profit. Instead, it is a tool of
convenience, opportunity, and blackmail. A lot of people don't
remember and a lot of people won't remember. They are the ones who
put this smell into the wind. They are the ones who will put Tahir
Ranon in power one of these days."
"Nabil, you worry more than an old woman on workhouse rations."
"What about that dribble-nosed young priest who was at the pulpit last Adonai?"
"What about him?"
Nabil laughed. "Skipping services again? You be careful that they
don't have you in front of a priest's court one of these days."
"The priests are too busy buggering each other and stealing from the
poor to worry about me. What did the priest do?"
"He as much as told Duman Amin and the members of every other old
family in the temple that the Reformists are dragging the world down
to Magda's fire in Hell"
"That's a Reformist temple! He had no right to say such a thing."
There was genuine shock in Onan's voice. "Why would even a fanatic
take such a risk? And before that congregation? In that temple, of
all places?"
"As I said, my friend, there is something 'doxy in the wind."
"Bah! Nabil, you ought to grow hair and sausages, become a
fuzzywriggle, and augur up the future yourself with a little blue
book."
In the dark behind the ranges, Silent Her frowned at Onan's comment
about a little blue book as she removed a loose stone from the wall
and placed the tiny booklet into the opening. Before she replaced the
rock, she looked at the book's blue cover and thought. Females were
not allowed to own property, and the Imahnti must have known about
the law. Why had the fuzzywriggle given her the book? And how could
one "augur up the future" with such a book? And if she could, what
kind of future would she try to bring into being?
She quietly replaced the stone. The questions were pointless without
the key to the words in the book. She peeked from between the ranges.
Onan was slouching in his chair, his arms folded, his legs
outstretched and crossed at the ankles, his chin resting upon his
chest. He lifted his head and said to Nabil, "If what's in the wind
is what you think it is, my friend, we'd better pray to Alilah that
Joram and Bahai have both outgrown the ''doxies."
"You say to pray?"
"Pray like you have no paddle, and paddle like there is no God."
The girl faded into the shadows and slipped into the corridor. Jamil
was on duty, and this time the sergeant was catching a quick nap in
the guard room. She crept past the guard room, opened the door, and
made her way to her brother's room of toys. She had made up her mind
to tell Rahman about the book. Perhaps he would teach her how to read
it.
When she arrived Rahman was sitting on the floor playing with a model
sailing ship. After noticing her the boy frowned and returned his
attention to the model.
"You shouldn't be here, girl. I'll get in more trouble."
Something cold touched her heart. She signed, "What is wrong?"
"Jamil talked to my father."
She smiled. "Did you tell your great lie? Did you tell him that
Jamil"
"No." Rahman's face was very red. "Jamil told my father about the lie
and about my threat. My father was very angry with me." Tears of
shame were hot in his eyes. "He beat me, and it was all your fault!"
Her eyes narrowed as she signed, "I didn't make you tell lies
against Jamil."
The boy pushed his model aside, got to his feet, and slapped the
girl's face. "That's for you, Silent Her!"
She stood there, stunned, as her world shrank to the limits of the
female wing. She damned the tears on her cheeks as she signed,
"You are nothing, Rahman. You are just like them all. Nothing."
He lifted his hand to slap her again, but she pushed his chest with
her hands, knocking him backwards over his model ship. He struggled
halfway to his feet and she leaped on him, knocking him flat on the
floor, crushing his model. She wrestled with him until she straddled
his chest and was holding down his arms by his wrists.
"I'll kill you, girl! I swear I'll kill you for this!"
From beneath her veil Silent Her looked down at her brother's bright
red face. His face was directly beneath hers, and there was nothing
but empty space between her lips and Rahman's eyes. She gathered the
spittle in her mouth, opened her lips, and let it fall on his face.
As her brother screamed his anger, she swallowed as much air as she
could hold and burped the most filthy word she had ever heard.
"Toilet!"
Releasing him, she stood and looked one last time at the room full of
toys. The prince was a monster, but the kingdom had been wondrous.
"You are ugly!" screamed Rahman from his place on the floor. "You're
mean, ugly, and you smell bad! You're stupid, a girl, and nothing but
a dummy! I hate you! I hate you and wish you were dead!"
Silent Her turned away and faded into the shadows as she returned to
the female wing. That night, as she cried, she felt her heart shatter.
· · · · ·
Weeks later the household stood in the courtyard before the entrance
to the main house, autumn's chilly morning breath upon their necks.
The men stood in a loose half-circle around Duman Amin. The women and
girls of the household stood in a black cluster at the foot of the
stone staircase.
Rihana was standing with the wives of Onan, Nabil, Jamil, Majnun, and
Isak. Even the wife of the heathen gardener, Toi, was there. The five
kitchen scrub girls huddled by themselves, and no matter how Rihana
urged them to relax, they stayed to themselves and kept the fear in
their eyes.
Majnun and Isak stood with the women, but not with their wives.
Between them they guarded Duman's second wife, known to the women as
Hedia. All of the servant men were there, but none of them would be
going to the ceremony.
Silent Her looked up at her mother. Isak was holding Hedia's left arm
while Majnun held the right.
"By Kamil's ice," cursed Duman Amin. "This is barbarous." He glanced
at Razi Itef, his secretary. "The orthodoxy raises its toothless old
head to let out one last senile wheeze for the purpose of seeing if
it can make the rest of us jump. It is nothing more than that."
"I see we are jumping nonetheless, minister."
Silent Her's father glared at Razi for a split second, then he
snorted out an angry laugh. "That is not a lie on your lips." Duman
paused to look through the main gateway. "If the first minister wants
to make a parade out of this farce, where is he?"
"It shouldn't be much longer, minister. The prime's secretary said
they were just passing Yo'el when he called." Razi looked at his
watch. "Perhaps I should get your wrap, sir. You already look chilled
and the ceremony will be held outdoors. If they plan readings in
addition to all of the speeches, it promises to be quite an ordeal."
Duman grimaced and faced Razi. "Tahir Ranon will get in there with at
least an hour of regressive wind, you may be certain." He nodded and
sighed. "A wrap would be very sensible. Thank you for the suggestion."
Razi cocked his head at Nabil, and Duman's head servant bowed and
hurried up the stairs. While Duman waited, he frowned and walked over
to the women. Silent Her and the others bowed deeply at his approach.
He held up his hands. "Listen to me."
They stood erect and Duman looked at them one at a time. When his
gaze reached Silent Her, he paused. His eyes blinked, then he
addressed them all. "I want you to understand that the ceremony
through which you are about to be put is something I and the
Reformists have opposed for decades. It is a ceremony that humiliates
everyone; men as well as women. It would not serve the will of Alilah
any less to have a witch doctor dance about to summon dust demons."
The faces of some of the women carried worried looks. "The worst that
might happen to you at this thing is a chill, sore knees, or a
troublesome case of boredom. Is everyone dressed warmly?"
Some of the women nodded in response. Duman's glance fell upon his
second wife for an instant. "I'd hoped I could spare you this." He
shrugged and faced all of the women. "I wanted to spare all of you.
However, because of the border incident with Bahai, the orthodoxy has
the nation on a fundamentalist jag. It will pass, and until it does
pass, all we have to do is to make certain that foolish courage
doesn't have us getting caught up in the hysteria of the moment.
Meanwhile we have some sand to eat. Our first minister, Mikael Yucel,
will eat his share, so we must eat ours. The women of both of our
households will stand the ceremony along with the household women of
the rest of the cabinet members."
Nabil arrived with Duman's gray coat with the black fur collar. As he
was helped on with his coat he said to the women, "I just want you to
know that I oppose this."
A shout from the wall signaled the arrival of the first minister's
party. After a moment the glossy maroon nose of the first limousine
entered the gate followed by a trail of fourteen limousines, each one
the same maroon color. The vehicles all had tiny flags mounted on
their fenders. The flags were white with a golden starcross in the
center of each one.
Silent Her turned around and saw two of the scrub women signing at each other.
"Did you hear what he said?" signed Zel to Joina. "It makes
my blood boil."
Joina nodded and signed, "Tahir will scour these stains from
Alilah's hem one day."
"May God touch his eyes"
Rihana turned Silent Her around and signed, "It is impolite to
present your back to the first minister."
The girl reached into Rihana's sleeve so that she could sign against
her skin unobserved. "Zel and Joina are angry at my father."
"They are orthodox," answered Rihana.
"Should we tell my father?"
"Your father knows."
Silent Her frowned as she thought of something. Again her fingers
moved on Rihana's arm. "If they are orthodox, should they be
finger-talking? I thought the 'doxies didn't allow finger-talking."
Rihana's lips parted in a wry smile as she answered, "In their
case it's all right because they're doing it themselves. Pay
attention now to the first minister."
Duman waited beside the first car as Nabil opened the door. The first
minister stepped down from his limousine and Silent Her was
disappointed at how short he was. Since he was first minister, that
made him more important than her father. She had expected him to be
taller than Duman. The first minister's face carried a troubled look.
Her father stepped forward, took Mikael Yucel's hand, kissed it, and
held it to his forehead. Upon releasing his hand, Duman kissed the
first minister on both cheeks. Silent Her looked up at the house.
Rahman was looking down at her, his face filled with hate. She looked
away and the chauffeurs of the last five limousines opened their
passenger doors and took their posts.
Nabil began assigning the women to the last five cars and Silent Her
became light-headed at the prospect of being off the estate. Where
might they go? What might they see? She followed Rihana into the
limousine and instantly her nostrils were caressed by the smells of
leather and aromatic woods.
She was seated between Rihana and the ancient woman she remembered
from the burying of Duman's mother. She placed her hand upon Rihana's
arm and pressed, "Who is she?"
Rihana signed that the old woman was Duman's aunt Leeba, and to
remember that Leeba was feebleminded and not to ask her anything or
she'll begin crying. Isak entered the compartment followed by Hedia
and Majnun. Duman's second wife sat down facing her daughter, the
guards sitting on either side.
Silent Her saw that her mother was staring at her. She lowered her
gaze to her mother's hands. Hedia signed, "You are my child. I
heard you cry out when you were born. I know you can give voice."
Hesitantly the girl signed back, "They say you are mad. They say I
should not go near you because you will hurt me. They say I should
read nothing you sign to me."
"You can give voice."
"I cannot. I have tried. I cannot give voice."
Hedia's fingers repeated, "You can give voice."
Silent Her sat still for a long time, looking at her mother's long,
delicate fingers. When the cars began moving, she signed to her
mother, "You never gave me my quiet name."
"After you were taken from me, the one time I saw you, you ran from me."
The girl's eyes widened. "Do I have a quiet name?"
"Yes."
"What is my name among women?"
Hedia's hard mouth softened slightly as she signed, "Your quiet
name is Lilith. Lilith was Adam's first wife. She demanded equality
with Adam, and when Adam would not consent to this, she left him.
Adam then received Eve from God and together they founded the race of
men and pliant female creatures. Lilith went on to found the race of
women."
"Are they allowed to do that finger-talking among themselves?" asked Majnun.
Isak shook his head and answered, "Not in my limousine." He shrugged
and smiled. "But, then, this is not my limousine." Majnun's voice
grew more serious. "This is Duman's limousine, and without disrespect
I say that with him women may do anything they please."
Lilith looked into her mother's eyes and signed, "Thank you for my
name, Mother."
Hedia's fingers signed, "Never forget: I heard you cry. You can
speak. Lilith, you can give voice back to the race of women."
Lilith looked to her left to see Rihana looking back at her. Duman's
first wife studied her for a moment, glanced at Hedia, and turned her
gaze toward the passing hills and fields.
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