X
Rajban plunged her hoe into the hard earth of the garden bed,
prying up chunks of clay. Grief sat in her stomach like heavy black
mud, but it was not grief for her husband. It was for herself. Now
she was widowed. She had no home. She would have no sons.
Brother-in-Law had sent her away.
So why had Gharia come after her?
She hacked at the earth, and thought about it. Gharia had been a
frequent guest at Brother-in-Law's table, where they discussed the
foreign issue, and the influence of nonbelievers. At
times they would grow very angry, but when the talk lapsed, Gharia's
eyes often found their rest on Rajban's backside as she worked in the
kitchen with Mother-in-Law.
Mother-in-Law would notice the direction of Gharia's gaze, and her
words to Rajban would be angry.
Rajban remembered these things as she crumbled each chunk of clay in
her hands. She picked up the hoe again and dug deeper. The soil here
was bad. There were no worms in it. No tiny bugs. It looked as
sterile as the soil in Brother-in-Law's courtyard. Even the weeds
were yellow.
No matter.
She would use the magic soil. With love and prayers, its influence
could be worked into the ground.
A winged shadow drifted slowly over Rajban's hands. She paused in her
work, squinting against the noon sun. There! She spied it again: A
tiny plane the color of the sky. It was very hard to see, yet if she
looked long enough, she could always find it floating above the house.
The door latch clicked. "Rajban?"
Rajban smiled shyly when she saw the kind woman, Muthaye, looking out
between the glass doors. "Namaste," she murmured softly. "You came
back."
"Namaste," Muthaye echoed. "Will you come inside? The sun is high,
and it is very hot."
Rajban obeyed. She stood on stiff legs, taking a moment to brush the
soil from her sari. Inside, she was startled to discover other women.
They were four, sitting in a half-circle on the carpet. They were not
fine women, like Muthaye. Their saris were worn and their faces
lined. All of them were older than Rajban. She felt sure they were
all mothers, and she felt ashamed.
Twice in her first year of marriage she had thought herself pregnant,
but her hopes were shattered by a late, painful, and heavy flow of
bloodas if a baby had been started and then had died.
Rajban remembered the midwife who had come to visit on the day she
arrived in her husband's household. This midwife had not looked like
the village health aides Rajban had seen at her father's farm. This
one was young and finely dressed, and she wore an eye veil, like
Michael. "She will make your womb healthy," Mother-in-Law declared.
"So healthy you will bear only sons." Rajban had bit her lips to keep
from wailing in pain as cold, gloved hands groped inside her. She had
not felt healthy afterwards. Her abdomen and her crotch had ached for
daysand she had never conceived a baby. Or maybe
she had conceived only girls?
Muthaye had joined the circle of women. Now she smiled at Rajban.
"Please won't you sit?" She patted a spot at her side that would
close the circle. Rajban did as she was asked, though she would have
been happier to disappear into the kitchen. She sat with her hands
folded neatly in her lap while Muthaye told a story that did not
sound like it could be true.
"My mother was an illiterate country woman," Muthaye began. Her gaze
sought Rajban. "That means she was like you. She could not read or
write or speak any language but the one she was born to. At fourteen
she was married to a young man only a little more educated than she,
the third son of a cruel and selfish family. It was a great struggle
for my grandfather to gather the large dowry demanded by her
husband's family. Still, he paid it, though he was forced to mortgage
his land. Several months later there came a terrible storm. The land
was flooded, the household of my mother's husband was destroyed, and
along with many others in the village, he died of disease. When
afterwards my mother gave birth to a daughter, she was driven out of
the family. She returned to her father's house, but he refused to
receive her, so she went without food and shelter, and her baby girl
died.
"My mother became angry.
"She remembered that in the year of her marriage, she had met an
agent from the women's cooperative. She went to that agent now, and
was given a job sewing embroidered scarves. She earned enough to feed
herself, but she wanted more. With the help of the women's
cooperative, she taught herself to read. She received a small
loanonly two hundred dollarsbut it was enough to buy
books and start her own lending library. When the loan was paid back
she took out another, and eventually she started a school just for
girls. In time she married again"
There was a murmur of surprise from the circle.
"the son of a longtime member of the women's cooperative. No
dowry was paid"
Again, a whisper of astonishment arose from the gathered women.
"for dowry is evil and illegal. She still runs her school, and
through it she has earned more money for her family than she might
have ever brought as dowry. She is middle-class, Rajban. Yet when she
was fifteen, she was just like you."
Rajban stared down at the lines of dirt that lay across her palms,
knowing it wasn't true. "She had a baby."
Muthaye's tone became more strict: "It is not unexpected that a
husband dying of AIDS gave you his disease instead of a child. That
does not mean you will never have a childor another husband."
"My brother-in-law will not allow it."
"You do not belong to him anymore."
Rajban considered this. She turned it over and over in her mind,
wondering if it was true. At the same time, she listened to the other
women talk about themselves. These women were all learning to read.
Three of them had businesses. One made sandals. Another drove a zip.
The last cleaned houses. The fourth member of their group was
building a fruit stand. All of them had started their businesses with
small loans from Muthaye.
"Not from me," Muthaye corrected. "These are loans from the Southern
Banking Association."
The loans were for a few hundred dollars at a time, enough to buy the
tools and supplies that would let them work. Together, the women
ensured that each one of them made their weekly payments. If any
failed to do so, all would lose their credit. This was the
"microcredit program" administered by Muthaye. Three of the women in
this lending circle had been involved for several years, one for only
a few months.
"A lending circle should have five women," Muthaye explained. "The
fifth lady of this group has moved away to join her son in Bangalore,
so there is a place for you here. I have told you the story of my
mother. This can be your story too."
Rajban bowed her head. Her heart fluttered, like a bird, seeking to
escape its cage for the peaceful serenity of the sun-seared sky. She
stared at her hands and whispered, "I don't know how."
One of the older women patted her mud-stained hand. She asked if
Rajban could sew or cook. If she could keep a house clean or carry a
heavy weight. Rajban didn't know how to answer. Her mother had raised
her to do the things women do. All these things she had done, but
surely no one would pay her to do them?
"Is there anything you are so good at?" Muthaye asked. "Is there a
kind of work that blossoms like a flower in your hands?"
Rajban caught her breath. She glanced out at the garden. "I have a
bag of magic soil that makes a garden strong and happy."
This brought a shower of laughter from the women. But why? Hadn't
Rajban believed all their tales? And yet they laughed. Their kindly
faces had all become the face of her Mother-in-law, laughing,
laughing, and endlessly scolding her, Stupid girl!
She felt a touch on her hand, and the vision vanished, but even
Muthaye's warm eyes could not chase away the pain.
"Magic is the comfort of old-fashioned women," Muthaye told her. "A
modern woman has no need of it. Think on what we've talked about.
Think of a business you might like to do. Think hard, for you must be
settled before the AIDS treatment can begin."
XI
Word of the morning's misadventures got around quickly. It was
still early when Michael stepped from a zip into the shade of the
portico at Global Shear's district headquarters. The five-story
office cube was newly built, situated halfway up a shallow, rocky
rise dividing two of the original villages. A temple occupied the
high ground, while a pig farmer kept his animals in a dusty pen on
one side of the landscaped grounds. Laborers' shacks made up the rest
of the neighborhood.
A nervous community relations officer greeted Michael even before he
entered the building. "Shall we issue a public statement, Mr.
Fielding?"
"Not unless someone asks."
"There have been several inquiries about the helicopter."
"Then state the truth. Intruder alarms went off and security
responded. Play it down, though, and add that we're reviewing our
procedures to see if our response might be tempered in the future."
"Yes sir."
Glass doors slipped open, and Michael stepped into the
air-conditioned paradise of the public lobby. The receptionist looked
up, and smiled. "An exciting morning, Mr. Fielding! That helicopter
raid must have shaken the dust off anyone still doubting our
diligence."
"So I hear."
He met more compliments on the elevator ride to the fifth floor, but
the tenor changed when heentered his corner office, where Karen
Hampton waited for him, her image resident in an active wall screen.
"A most interesting report appeared in my queue this morning. Talk to
me, Michael. What the hell is going on?"
Michael sat down in the chair behind his desk, swiveling to face her.
Nothing to do but tell the truth. He explained the situation, but she
did not look relieved.
"Michael. I can't believe you've involved yourself with this girl. Do
I have to remind you that trust is the most important asset we are
building in Four Villages? I don't give a damn how innocent your
actions are, stop for a minute and ask yourself how this must look to
those people whom you are there to servenot to exploit. If you
can't find her a shelter, then buy her one. For the sake of
your reputation and the company's good name, rent this young woman
her own house and then stay far away from her."
"What if Gharia comes after her?"
"This isn't our business"
"Karen, it might be. I've checked the census figures, and there's a
growing imbalance in the sex ratio here. There are far fewer young
women than men. Rajban may be a widow, and she may be ill, but
Gharia's not exactly a kid. She could still be the best prospect he
has."
"If that's so, why did her family get rid of her instead of marrying her off?"
"I don't know. Maybe they didn't want to pay a dowry. Maybe they
don't give a damn. Maybe they're strict Hindus and don't believe in
remarriage for women."
"Listen to yourself! There are cultural complexities here that you
haven't begun to grasp. This is not why you're in Four Villages."
"We're here to build a stable, diverse, and functional economy, and
that can't exist where there is slavery. I won't send Rajban back
into slavery."
"I'm not asking you to do that. Just get her out of your house. I
want you in this job, Michael. I really do. Show me my confidence is
not misplaced."
· · · · ·
Michael called in the personnel officer, and she promised to hunt
around for an available residence, though she wasn't hopeful. "There
are very few rentals in town, and most landlords will deal only with
a certain class of clientele. I might be able to obtain a room, or
perhaps a shanty, but that would almost certainly bring about the
eviction of a current resident."
"We don't want that. Do what you can."
The day failed to improve. Near noon, Michael looked up from his desk
to see Pallava Sen, his second in command, coming through the open
doorway, a half-page of neon yellow paper in his hand. "Michael, we
have a problem."
Leaning back in his chair, Michael slipped off his shades, laying
them carefully on the desk. "How bad a problem?"
Pallava rolled his eyes, as if casting a quick prayer up to the gods.
With his portly figure and balding head, he looked like a youthful
version of the little buddhas sold in Japanese tourist markets. "Not
so bad at the moment, but with significant potential to get much
worse."
"Wonderful."
Pallava handed him the yellow paper. "These have appeared all over
the town. They are being read aloud, too, so the illiterate will be
informed."
Michael scowled at the notice. It was written in Hindi.
Pallava settled into the guest chair, a grim smile on his face. "It
is written as a news report, by the Traditional Council of Elders.
You've heard of them?"
"No."
"Neither has anyone else. They do not say whose elders they are, but
they do tell us some interesting things. Here"he leaned
forward, pointing at the headline"they say that Global Shear
has poisoned the people of this district."
Michael had been so fully set to hear how he had kidnapped and raped
a good Hindu woman, that it took him a moment to shift modes. "
Poisoned?"
"The argument follows. It says that independent testing of well water
throughout the district has revealed severe pesticide contamination.
The wells have been regularly tested, and for many years they have
produced only clean, unpolluted water. Now they are suddenly contaminated?
The only plausible explanation is that the groundwater was
deliberately poisoned."
"That's ridiculous."
"Oh, there's more." He leaned back, lacing his fingers together in a
nervous, unsettled bridge. "The notice does not name specific
chemicals, but it claims those present will suppress the birth rate
of the district's women, and in many cases will cause monstrous birth
defects leading to early miscarriage. This may be one reason so few
girls have been born this past year. Girls are weaker than boys. They
die more easily."
He said this last in a deadpan voice that made Michael's eyes narrow.
"The notice says that?" he asked cautiously. "Or is that your
interpretation?"
Pallava's face hardened. In the same low, flat voice, he answered,
"I would not say that. I have a wife who, I am proud to say,
is stronger and smarter than I am. I have two brilliant daughters, a
sister, a mother, a grandmother. We are not all that way, Michael."
Michael felt his cheeks heat. "I know. I'm sorry."
Pallava shrugged. "You understand the implication? That Global Shear
is using cheap birth control?"
Michael nodded.
"The article is also circulating as an Internet message."
"Christ."
"And Shiva. It has not, mercifully, appeared yet on cable TV."
"We need to dispatch crews to field-sample some wells."
"I have already sent them."
"Good. Get me the results as soon as possible." He drummed his desk.
"Better test some crop samples too. The harvest is just coming in on
the demonstration farm. Check that, especially. Dammit! We
have to counter these accusations todayand on cable TV, too."
· · · · ·
It was an hour later when Pallava Sen walked back into Michael's
office, collapsing once more into the visitor's chair. Global Shear
had used paper, Internet, cable TV, messengers, and paid
gossip-mongers to vehemently deny the allegations of the Traditional
Elders, and to announce their intention to immediately investigate
the condition of the well water.
Pallava didn't speak right away. He frowned, his brow wrinkling in
lines that made him look old.
"How bad is it now?" Michael asked.
Pallava's sigh was long and heartfelt. "Mega-bad. Giga-bad. It seems
the slander was at least partly right. We've fast-tested a sample of
wells from across the district and everyone of them shows extensive
pesticide contamination." He shook his head. "This is not something
that could have happened overnight, not even if it was deliberately
done, which I don't believe. We are looking at the results of
yearsprobably decadesof seepage into the water table.
It's quite obvious the water quality reports we've been using have
been falsified. Deliberately falsified."
Michael breathed slowly, trying to calm the fierce pounding of his
heart. Don't panic, but don't hide from the truth either. The
first thing to do is get a handle on the problem. "Let's be
specific here. We're talking drinking water?"
"Drinking, agricultural." Pallava spread his hands helplessly. "It's
all the same thing, and judging from the spot samples, we have to
assume there is pesticide contamination in every well in the
district." His hands laced together as he stared at a spot beyond
Michael's shoulder. "The Ikeda rice crop is contaminated too. The
sample we tested came out so bad the stuff can't be legally used even
for animal feed."
"Christ."
"And Shiva too."
No pesticides had been used on the Ikeda rice. That was, after all, a
major benefit of genetically engineered cropsnatural insect and
disease resistance could be spliced inbut Ikeda rice had not
been designed to flush itself free of chemical contamination.
No more assumptions, Michael swore. "Tell me now if Global
Shear had anything to do with developing the phony reports."
Pallava straightened, his eyes wide with surprise. He had been in on
the operation here from the opening day. "No! No, of course not.
Global Shear had nothing to do with preparing the reports. Water
quality monitoring has been a government function. Our mistake was
relying on the test results we received."
"Why would anybody want to fake these reports?"
Pallava shrugged. "There are many possible reasons. The wells were a
government project. To find fault with them would not be patriotic.
To find them dirty must mean the money spent to build them was
wasted, or that those who built them didn't do sufficient background
work, or that more money would be needed to clean the water, and
where is that supposed to come from? And will those who built the
wells be punished? Those who built the wells also report on their
functions, so you see, it's not so hard to understand how it could
happen. It's not the first time."
"And still, it's our mistake for trusting the data without testing it."
"Yes. Ultimately, it will come back to that."
· · · · ·
"Michael?"
It was Jaya's voice, issuing from the shades he'd left lying on the
desk. She spoke softly, as if he were a sleeping child and she
reluctant to wake him. Her priority link let her open a line at any
time.
Michael grabbed the shades and slipped them on. "Jaya! How are you?
How's the baby?" He transferred the link to his portal screen, and
Jaya's image replaced the document he'd been working on. She was as
lovely as any magazine model and, not for the first time, Michael
thought of Sheo with a twinge of envy.
"We're all fine," Jaya assured him. Then she hesitated. "Michael,
I've been talking to Ryan."
He grunted, sinking back into his chair. "You've heard about Rajban, then."
"Yes. I think it's sweet, what you're trying to do for her." Jaya
touched her ruby-red lips. What a perfect alliance she had made with
the colorful, symbiotic bacteria living in her cellsyet most
people, upon hearing the source of the color, would respond in
revulsion: Yuck. I would never do that.
It took practice to keep the mind open to new possibilities.
"Sheo told me about the reaction of the nurses to Ela's birth," Jaya
said. "I didn't notice, really. They were very kind to me. The older
woman, though, was concerned that I have a son next time. She told me
she had been trained in these things."
Michael scowled. "What things?"
"That's what I asked. It seems there is a uterine implant on the
market, which can be used to selectively abort female embryos. It
isn't legal, but the nurse was quite casual about it. She offered to
set me up with one before I left the hospital, for a small fee of
course. Sheo thought you might like to know this."
Michael grimaced. "Sheo was right."
A uterine implant was better than infanticideMichael even found
himself admiring the ingenuity of such a devicebut what of the
imbalance it would generate? He remembered Gharia, and the look of
wrath on his face. "How long do you suppose this has been going on?"
Jaya shrugged. "In one form or another, for hundreds of years."
"Though it's gotten easier now."
"Yes."
But who would bear the cost?
Tensions in Four Villages were not readily visible, yet Michael had
sensed them anyway, in the whispering of the nurses on the maternity
ward, in the heat of Rajban's fever, in Kanwal's cheerful lament over
dowry and women and net access. The people here were experiencing a
strange, sideways tearing of their culture, like raw cotton being
combed apart, the pieces on their way to a new order, while still
clinging helplessly to the old.
"This fellow Gharia is supposed to be a religious activist," Michael
said. "I'm starting to wonder if it's only coincidence that this
attack on Global Shear followed so closely on his visit this morning."
"Rajban is just one little girl," Jaya reminded him.
True, but a fuse was small compared to the explosives it ignited.
Jaya might have read his mind. "Michael, please be careful. These
things have a way of getting out of hand."
XII
After a day spent researching a bid on the Victoria Glen project,
Cody found she could not sleep. So at 3 A.M.
she pulled on her VR helmet and joined her mother on a stroll in the
Paris sunshine. That is, Annette strolled, through tourist crowds
along a riverwalk, beneath a grove of ancient trees. Cody felt as if
she were floating, a balloon gliding at her mother's side.
"Of all the uses of VR, I like this best," Cody said. "Being able to
step out of the awful three A.M. hour, when
everything's so dark and cold and hopelessstep right out into
gorgeous sunshine. It's like slipping free of your fate, flipping a
finger at the cosmos. Ha!"
Annette laughed. Cody was looking out of her shades, and so she
couldn't see her mother's face, but she could feel her presence. It
was a strange, tickling feeling, as if she might see her after all if
she turned just a little bit more.
Cody had not lived with her mother since leaving Victoria Glen for
boarding school, and still Annette had been an indefatigable presence
in her life, through phone calls and e-mail and brief visits several
times a year as they both worked toward their degrees. It had been so
hard. Cody felt scared even now when she remembered the loneliness,
the resentment she had felt for so many years living on the charity
of a corporate scholarship, in a private school where almost everyone
else had money and a home and a real family. But even at her worst
moments, Cody had never doubted Annette's love.
Now Annette was forty-nine, a data analyst on vacation in Paris with
her husband of many years. She had helped him raise his son and one
of their own. "Doing it right this time," she'd joked with Cody. It
had only hurt a little.
"So, girl. You've been up to something, haven't you? Hurry up and
tell me before Jim gets back."
"Up to something?" Cody echoed, disquiet stirring near her heart.
"Something's put you in a mood," Annette said. Up ahead, Jim was
waiting by a flower stand. Annette waved to him. "Are you working
yourself up for a fight?"
"Oh." Cody had promised herself she would not mention Victoria Glen.
Her mother didn't like to think about those days. She didn't even
like to acknowledge that time had ever been real. And still, Cody
found herself confessing. "I went back to Victoria Glen"
"Cody!"
"In VR," she added, hoping to appease her mother's scathing tone.
"I'm bidding on a job there. I spent all day developing the proposal.
I guess I'm wound a little tight."
"Why there, Cody?" Annette sighed. "I know you're doing well.
You're not desperate for the job. Are you?"
"No."
"Then why go back there?"
"I don't know. Or
maybe I do know. I"
Annette stepped into a bookstore, leaving Jim waiting beside the
flowers. Cody watched her hands touch the spines of a row of
English-language guidebooks. They were strong, long-fingered hands,
golden as teak, each nail painted in milk-chocolate-brown. "Cody, do
you know the greatest difference between you and me?"
Cody laughed. It was the only reaction she could think of. "Oh,
you're smarter than I am."
"No. I'm more ruthless. I have never let the past own me. If I don't
like it, I cut it out. I throw it away. It's not an easy thing to do,
but it's needful. I don't think about Victoria Glen, and I don't muse
over the boy who was your father, and I don't apologize to anybody
for letting Prescott Academy take you away. Holding on to all that
would have made my soul so heavy I couldn't get up in the morning. I
have to live lightly. I have to do all that I can with what I have in
my hands right now." She looked up at the bookstore door. Jim had
just come in.
Annette's voice grew softer. "Brace yourself for a mother lecture,"
she warned. "Cody, you need to learn to live lightly too. You don't
have anything to make up for. Let the past go. Let it slip away, and
find your joy here, today."
· · · · ·
But what if the past is looking for you? Rising in your life like
a flooding river, climbing past your ankles, past your knees and your
thighs, flowing into your secret places, nesting in your womb?
· · · · ·
Cody let the link close, plunging herself back into the darkness of
her VR helmet. Not absolutely dark. A call-waiting light glowed amber
in the corner of her vision.
When had that come on?
She tapped her glove, calling up a link ID.
Confirmed identity: Michael Fielding.
"Oh God." She felt as if a heat lance had plunged through her, diving
in a beam between heart and stomach and out the middle of her back.
Michael. "Why now, baby?" she whispered. All the lines of
force that guided her life seemed to be intersecting tonight.
She laid her palm against her flat belly. Was there a baby there?
Still a single cell, moving toward her womb, and the judgment she had
built-in. She'd blamed herself for the loss of that first pregnancy,
but had it been her fault? Or had she been poisoned oh so long ago,
in Victoria Glen?
She bowed her head, laughing, cryingsome strange mix of the
two, her guts feeling like jelly. "Baby, why are you calling
tonight?"
Easy to find out.
She wiped her eyes on the hem of her shirt. She drew a deep breath to
steady herself. Where did he live now, anyway? Hong Kong, wasn't it?
She'd gotten a card from him last Christmas.
Her finger curled. She tapped her data glove.
Link.
Just like that, he was there, his head and shoulders drifting in an
ill-defined space only an arm's reach in front of her. He looked
surprised to see her. "Cody?"
She smiled. "Come on, baby, I don't look that old."
He blushed. Bless him. "Old? Not at all. Hey, it's been a while. And
I know its an outrageous hour. I meant to leave a message, but then I
thought I'd query your status, and you were awake"
"How are you, Michael?" she asked. He had always talked too much when
he was nervous.
"Oh, I'm good. The job, though
I've got a situation here.
I'm working in southern India. Did I tell you that?"
"No."
That flustered him further. A rosy blush heated his bronze
complexion. He looked down at his desk a moment, then grinned. "I
sound like I've got a few too many crosslinks in the old wetware,
don't I?"
"It happens to the best of us."
It was on her lips to tell him what she'd remembered in the VR last
night, yet she couldn't do it. It had been her decision to end their
marriage. In the long, dark months after the abortion she had watched
their union rot, until she could kick it over with one cold clutch of
words: There's nothing left. I'm leaving.
How could she tell him now, "Oops. Sorry. I made a mistake"?
"How's your schedule?" he asked. "Are you busy right now?"
"At three A.M.?"
His brows rose over a crooked smile. "Well, yeah. Sorry. I wouldn't
be bothering you, but we've just stumbled over a critical groundwater
problemand a possible political stew, to make things exciting."
Quickly, he explained the details. "I called you first. You're the
best. And, basically, you're a pushover."
Don't smile at me like that, she thought. And breathe, girl.
Thank God this wasn't a full-sensory link. She didn't want to smell
him, or feel the heat off his body. That smile was like a light
shining into her soul.
She asked, "Are you looking for a professional reference?"
"If you think that's what I need. I was wondering, though, if you could
handle it?"
"An operation that size?" She shook her head, uncomfortable with the
idea. "Green Stomp has only done domestic work. It would take time
for us to hire the extra personnel and mobilize." And besides,
there's another job I need to do. "You'd be better off with a
local outfit. I could ask around for recommendations."
He nodded, but he looked tense and unhappy. "I really need a favor,
Cody. Could you do a VR consultation now? I mean right now. This
afternoon
oh hell. This morning, where you are. I need a
specialist to survey the wells. I need solid answers for the people
who live here. It's a bad situation, and it could get out of hand so easily,
especially
"
She didn't like the awkward guilt lurking in his eyes. "What, Michael?"
He told her about Rajban. Cody listened, unable to completely
suppress a dark spear of suspicion, of jealousy, but when he
finished, she shook her head at her own tumbled existence, knowing
she had thrown away something precious for all the wrong reasons. It
was all she could do not to cry.
Concluded next week.
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