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Beyond the ninth stairway lay a deeply shadowed cellblock that had the musty, claustrophobic atmosphere of a catacomb. Walls of undressed stone set close together and mounted by iron stairs; the cells showing like cave mouths; dim white ceiling lights that had the radiant force of distant stars tucked into folds of black cloud. Fatigued and on edge, I was not up to exploring it. A cell stood open and untenanted just below the stairway, and deciding that my safest course would be to allow whoever was in charge to come to me, I entered it and sat down on the bunk. I was struck immediately by the quality of the mattress. Though it appeared to be the usual thin lumpy item, it was softer and more resilient than any prison mattress I had ever rested on. I stretched out on the bunk and found that the pillow was remarkably soft and firm. Closing my eyes, I let the quiet soothe me.
I must have been drowsing for several minutes when I heard a baritone voice say, "Penhaligon? That you, man?"
The voice had a familiar ring, and there was something familiar, too, about the lean, broad-shouldered man standing at the entrance to my cell. Framed by a heavy mass of greased-back hair, his face was narrow and long-jawed, with hollow cheeks, a bladed nose, and a full-lipped mouth. He might have been the love child of Elvis and the Wicked Witch of the West. I could not place him, but felt I should be wary.
He grunted out a laugh. "I can't look that different. Just shaved off the beard's all."
I recognized him then and sat up, alarmed.
"Don't get worked up. I'm not gonna fuck with you." He perched on the end of the bunk, angling his eyes about the cell. "You want to put up a picture or two 'fore your wall comes in, they got pretty much any kind you want in the commissary."
There were questions I might have asked concerning both the essence and the rather housewifely character of this last statement, but during my first month in minimum security, Richard Causey, then doing an eight-spot for manslaughter, had put me in the hospital for the better part of a month with injuries resulting from a beating and attempted rape; thus his comments on interior decoration sailed right past me.
"I 'spect it's been a while since anybody took the walk you did," Causey said with a trace of admiration. "Straight up from the door all the way to eight? I never saw anyone do it, that's for sure." He clasped his hands on his stomach and settled back against the wall. "Took me a year to move up here from six."
All my muscles were tensed, but he merely sat there, amiable and at ease.
"'Most everybody stops somewhere along the first few blocks," Causey went on. "They don't feel comfortable proceeding on 'til they nail down a crib."
"Is that right?"
"Yeah, they feel kinda how you felt when you got to nine. Like you best stop and give things a chance to sort themselves out. It's the same with everybody, 'cept you got a lot farther than most."
Though I may have made a neutral noise in response, I was intent upon Causey's hands, the muscles in his shoulders.
"Look here," he said. "I understand what you're feeling, but I'm not the man I used to be. You want me to leave, that's cool. I just figured you'd want to talk. I know when I came here, that's all I wanted was somebody to talk to."
"I'm not the man I was, either," I said, injecting menace into my voice.
"Well, that's good. Takes a different man than both of us were to do time in Diamond Bar."
I was beginning to think that, truly, Causey might have changed. No longer did he give off the hostile radiation that once he had, and his speech, formerly characterized by bursts of profanity commingled with butchered elisions, was now measured and considered by contrast. His manner was composed and the tattoo of a red spider that had centered his brow was missing. "Just wore away, I guess," he said when I asked about it. He told me what he could about Diamond Bar but cautioned that the prison was not easily explained.
"This'll piss you off
' least it did me," he said. "But can't anybody tell you how to work this place. Things come to you as you need 'em. There's a dining hall and a commissary, like everywhere else. But the food's a helluva lot better and you don't need money at the commissary. The board handles everything. Supplies, discipline, recreation. We don't have any guards. I don't
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"I saw a guard when I was walking up."
"Everybody sees that guy, but I never heard about him whupping his stick onto anybody. Could be he does his thing so's to give people something familiar to look at."
"You saying he's an inmate?"
"Maybe. I don't know. There's a lot I haven't figured out about, but it's coming." He tapped his temple and grinned. "Best thing about the place is the plumes. You gonna love them."
"What the hell's that?
"The queens who get you off down in Vacaville? The plumes put them away. You can't hardly tell the difference between them and a real woman."
Anxious to steer the conversation away from the sexual, I asked who I needed to watch out for, and he said, "Guys down on the first three or four blocks
some of them been known to go off. They're transferred out or given punishment duty. Mostly you need to watch out for yourself. Make sure you don't screw up."
"If there's no guards, people must just walk on out of here."
Causey gave me a penetrating look. "You crossed the river, didn't you? You entered of your own free will?"
"I thought the guards were watching."
"Might have been somebody watching. I couldn't tell you. All I know is, you and me and everyone else, we chose to be here, so we're not talking about a prison full of hard-core escape artists. And Diamond Bar's not so bad. Truth is, it's the best I've had it in a while. People say it's going to be even better once they finish the new wing. Escaping crossed my mind a time or two when I was first here. But I had the feeling it wasn't such a good idea."
What Causey said made me no more certain of my estate, and after he returned to his cell I remained awake, staring at the mysterious reach of the old prison that lay beyond the ninth stair, the dim white lights and anthracitic cell mouths. Everything I knew about Diamond Bar was cornerless and unwieldy, of a shape that refused to fit the logic of prisons, and this gave me cause to wonder how much more unwieldy and ill-fitting were the things I did not know. I was accustomed to prison nights thronged with hoots, cries, whispers, complaints, screams, an uneasy consensus song like the nocturnal music of a rain forest, and the compressed silence of the place, broken intermittently by coughs and snores, inhibited thought. At length I slept fretfully, waking now and again from dreams of being chased, hunted, and accused to find the silence grown deeper, alien and horrid in its thickness. But toward dawnone I sensed, not witnessedI woke to an outcry that seemed to issue from beneath the old prison, such a prolonged release of breath it could only have been the product of awful torment or extreme exaltation
or else it was the cry of something not quite human, expressing a primitive emotion whose cause and color is not ours to know, a response to some new shape of fear or a tidal influence or a memory from before birth, and following this I heard a whispering, chittering noise that seemed to arise from every quarter, like the agitated, subdued congress of a crowd gathered for an event of great and solemn gravity. While that chorus lasted I was full of dread, but once it subsided, almost stricken with relief, I fell into a black sleep and did not wake again until the shadows, too, had waked and the first full day of my true incarceration had begun.
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During those early months at Diamond Bar I came to understand the gist of what Ristelli, Causey, and the baldheaded man had tried to tell me. Eventually one found what was suitable. Things came to you. Trust your instincts. These statements proved to be not the vague, useless pronouncements I had assumed, but cogent practicalities, the central verities of the prison. Initially I behaved as I had during my early days at Vacaville. In the dining hall, an appropriately cavernous room of cream-colored walls, with the image of a great flying bird upon the ceiling, dark and unfigured, yet cleanly rendered like an emblem on a flag
in the dining room, then, I guarded my tray with my free arm and glanced fiercely about as I ate, warning off potential food thieves. When I discovered that the commissary was, indeed, a free store, I took to hoarding cigarettes, candy, and soap. It was several days before I recognized the pointlessness of these behavioral twitches, several weeks before I grew comfortable enough to forego them. Though I was not a heavy drug user, on those occasions that I grew bored, prior to beginning my work, I had no difficulty in obtaining drugsyou only had to mention your requirements to one of several men and later that day the pills or the powder would appear in your cell. I have no idea what might have occurred if I had developed a habit, but I doubt this was a problem at the prison. It was clear that the men on my block were all either above average in intelligence or skilled in some craft or both, and that most had found a means of employing their gifts and skills that left no time for recreational excess. As to the men housed in the cellblocks below the eighth stairway and how they managed thingsof them I knew little. The men of different blocks rarely mingled. But I was told that they had a less innate grasp of Diamond Bar's nature than did we. Consequently their day-to-day existence was more of a struggle to adapt. In time, if they were not transferred, theylike uswould move into the old wings of the prison.
It did not seem likely that anyone could have less firm a grasp on the subject of Diamond Bar than I did, but I adapted quickly, learned my way around, and soon became conversant with a theory espoused by the majority of the men on my block, which held that the prison was the ultimate expression of the carceral system, a mutation, an evolutionary leap forward both in terms of the system and the culture that they believed was modeled upon it. They did not claim to understand the specifics of how this mutation had been produced, but generally believed that a mystical conjunction of event (likely a systemic glitch, an alchemy of botched paperwork and inept bureaucracy), natural law, and cosmic intent had permitted the establishment and maintenance of a prison independent of the carceral system orso said the true believersone that acted through subtle manipulation to control both the system and the greater society whose backbone the system formed. Though this smacked of Ristelli's cant, it was not so easy to dismiss now that I saw Diamond Bar for myself. The absence of guards, of any traditional authority; the peculiar demeanor of the inmates; the comfortable beds, decent food and free commissary; the crossing of the river in lieu of ordinary official process; the man dressed as a guard whom everyone had seen and no one knew; the rapid fading of all tattoos; the disturbing dawn cry and the subsequent mutterings, a phenomenon repeated each and every morningwhat could be responsible for all this if not some mystical agency? For my part, I thought the theory a fantasy and preferred another, less popular theorythat we were being subjected to an experimental form of mind control and that our keepers were hidden among us. Whenever these theories were discussed, and they were often discussed, Richard Causey, who had studied political science at Duke University prior to turning to a career of violent crime and was writing a history of the prison, would declare that though he had his own ideas, the answer to this apparently unresolvable opposition resided with the board, but that thus far their responses to his inquiries concerning the matter had been inadequate.
The board consisted of four inmates ranging in age from sixtyish to over seventy. Holmes, Ashford, Czerny, and LeGary. They met each day in the yard to, it was said, decide the important questions relating to our lives andif you bought into the view that Diamond Bar was the purest expression of a carceral universe, the irreducible distillate of the essential human conditionthe lives of everyone on the planet. To reach the yard it was necessary to pass through the old wing of the prison visible beyond the eighth stairway, and though in the beginning I did not enjoy the passage, made anxious by the gloomy nineteenth century atmosphere of the wing's antiquated cells with their key locks and hand-forged bars, and the masses of rotting stone in which they were set, I grew accustomed to the sight and came to view the old sections of the prison as places of unguessable potentialit was there, after all, that I would someday live if I stayed at Diamond Bar. As I've noted, the prison straddled a ridgethe spine of the ridge ran straight down the middle of the yard. Most of the population would gather close to the walls or sit on the slopes, which had been worn barren by countless footsteps, but the members of the board met among the grass and shrubs that flourished atop the ridge, this narrow strip of vegetation giving the enclosed land the look of a giant's scalp pushing up from beneath the earth, one whose green hair had been trimmed into a ragged Mohawk. Rising beyond the west wall, several iron girders were visible, evidence of the new wing that was under construction. The new wing was frequently referenced in conversation as being the panacea for whatever problems existed in our relatively problem-free environmentit seemed an article of faith that prison life would therein be perfected. Again, this struck me as fiction disseminated by whoever was manipulating our fates.
Late one afternoon some four months after my arrival, myself and Causeytoward whom I had succeeded in developing a neutral attitudeand Terry Berbick, a short, thickset bank robber with a gnomish look, his curly black hair and beard shot through with gray, were sitting against the east wall in the yard, discussing the newcomer on our block, Harry Colangelo: this happened to be the baldheaded man whom I had confronted on the day I came to the prison. His furtive air and incoherent verbal outbursts had made a poor impression, and Berbick was of the opinion that Colangelo's move onto the block had been premature.
"Something confused the boy. Caught him at a crucial moment during his period of adjustment, and he's never gotten squared away." Berbick glanced at me. "Might be that dust-up with you did the trick."
"It wasn't that big a deal."
"I don't know. Way he stares at you, seems like you got under his skin. It might be why he moved up to eightso he can come back at you easier."
"I've seen it before," Causey said. "Something happens early on to fuck up a man's instincts, and next you know he goes to acting all haywire. Gets his ass transferred right on outa here."
I was not certain that being transferred out of Diamond Bar was the bleak prospect that Causey and Berbick thought it, but saw no need to argue the point.
"There the fucker is." Causey pointed to the slope on our left, where Colangelo was moving crabwise down the ridge, his pink scalp agleam with the westering sun, eyes fixed upon us. "I think Terry nailed it. The man's all messed up behind you."
"Whatever." I turned my attention to the four old men who purportedly ruled the world. Doddering on their height, the wind flying their sparse hair up into wild frays. Behind them, the tops of the girders burned gold, like iron candles touched with holy fire. Several younger men stood near the four. When I asked who they were, Berbick said they spoke for the board.
"What?" I said. "The masters of the universe can't talk for themselves?"
Berbick rolled up to his feet, smartly dusted the seat of his trousers, acting pissed-off. "You want to find out about the board, let's go see them."
I looked at him with amusement.
"You act like you know something," he said, "but you don't know as much as we do. And we don't know dip."
"Ain't no thing," I said. "Forget it."
"Nothing bad'll happen. We'll go with you." He glanced at Causey. "Right?"
Causey shrugged. "Sure."
Berbick arched an eyebrow and said to me in a taunting voice, "It's just four old guys, Tommy. Come on!"
Colangelo, who had been sitting upslope and to the left of us, scrambled up and hurried out of our path as we climbed the ridge.
"Fucking freak!" said Berbick as we drew abreast of him.
The board members were standing in a semicircle just below the highest point of the ridge, which was tufted with two roughly globular, almost identically puny shrubs, so sparsely leaved that from a distance, seen against the backdrop of the stone wall, they looked like the models of two small planets with dark gray oceans and island continents of green. The steadfastness with which the board was contemplating them gave rise to the impression that they were considering emigration to one or the other. Drawing near, I saw that the oldest among them, Czerny, appeared to be speaking, and the others, their eyes wandering, did not appear to be listening. Holmes, a shrunken black man, bald except for puffs of cottony hair above his ears and behind his neck, was shifting his feet restlessly, and the other two, Ashford and LeGary, both grandfather-gray and gaunt, were posed in vacant attitudes. One of the younger men who shadowed them, a stocky Latino in his forties, blocked our path, politely asked what we wanted, and Berbick jerked his thumb toward me and said, "Penhaligon here wants to meet the board."
"I don't want to meet them," I said, annoyed. "I was just wondering about them."
"They're busy," the Latino said. "But I'll see."
"You trying to fuck me over?" I asked Berbick as the Latino man went to consult with the board.
He looked pleased with himself. "What could happen? It's only four old guys."
"Nothing to worry about," Causey said. "He's just giving you shit."
"I don't need you interpreting for me, okay?" I said. "You can quit acting like my fucking big sister."
"Damn!" said Berbick with surprise. "He's coming over."
With the Latino holding his elbow, Czerny was heading toward us, shuffling through the ankle-high grasses, wobbly and frail. His caved-in face was freckled with liver spots, and the tip of his tongue flicked out with lizardly insistence. He was small, no more than five feet five, but his hands were those of a much larger man, wide and thick-fingered, with prominent knucklesthey trembled now, but looked as if they had been used violently during his youth. His eyes were a watery grayish blue, the sclera laced with broken vessels, and the right one had a cloudy cast. When he reached us, he extended a hand and gave my forearm a tentative three-fingered pat, like the benediction of a senile pope who had forgotten the proper form. He mumbled something, barely a whisper. The Latino man gave ear, and when Czerny had finished, he said, "There's important work for you here, Penhaligon. You should set about it quickly."
It did not seem that Czerny had spoken long enough to convey this much information. I suspected that the Latino man and his associates were running a hustle, pretending to interpret the maunderings of four senile old men and in the process guaranteeing a soft life for themselves.
Czerny muttered something more, and the Latino said, "Come visit me in my house whenever you wish."
The old man assayed a faltering smile; the Latino steadied him as he turned and, with reverent tenderness, led him back to join the others. I framed a sarcastic comment but was stopped by Causey's astonished expression. "What's going on?" I asked.
"Man invited you to his house," Causey said with an air of disbelief.
"Yeah
so?"
"That doesn't happen too often."
"I been here almost five years, and I don't remember it ever happening," Berbick said.
I glanced back and forth between them. "Wasn't him invited meit was his fucking handler."
Berbick made a disdainful noise, shook his head as if he couldn't fathom my stupidity, and Causey said, "Maybe when you go see him, you'll
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"Why the fuck would I go see him? So I can get groped by some old wheeze?"
"I guess you got better things to do," Berbick said. He was acting pissed-off again, and I said, "What crawled up your ass, man?"
He started to step to me, but Causey moved between us, poked me in the chest with two fingers and said, "You little hump! You walk straight up to eight from the door
You don't seem to appreciate what that means. Frank Czerny invites you to his house and you ridicule the man. I been trying to help you
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"I don't want your help, faggot!"
I recognized Causey's humorless smile as the same expression he had worn many years ago prior to ramming my head into a shower wall. I moved back a pace, but the smile faded and he said calmly, "Powers that be got something in mind for you, Penhaligon. That's plain to everyone 'cept you. Seems like you forgot everything you learned about surviving in prison. You don't come to new walls with an attitude. You pay attention to how things are and behave accordingly. Doesn't matter you don't like it. You do what you hafta. I'm telling youyou don't get with the program, they gonna transfer your sorry ass."
I pretended to shudder.
"Man thinks he's a hardass," said Berbick, who was gazing up at one of the guard turrets, an untenanted cupola atop a stone tower. "He doesn't know what hard is."
"Thing you oughta ask yourself," Causey said to me, "is where you gonna get transferred to."
He and Berbick started downslope, angling toward an unpopulated section of the east wall. Alone on the height, I was possessed by the paranoid suspicion that the groups of men huddled along the wall were all talking about me, but the only evidence that supported this was Colangelo, who was standing halfway down the slope to my right, some forty feet away, almost directly beneath the spot where the board was assembled. He was watching me intently, expectantly, as if anticipating that I might come at him. With his glowing scalp, his eyes pointed with gold, he had the look of a strange pink demon dressed in prison gray, and my usual disdain for him was supplanted by nervousness. As I descended from the ridge top, he took a parallel path, maintaining the distance between us, and though under ordinary circumstances I would have been tempted to challenge him, having alienated Causey and Berbick, knowing myself isolated, I picked up my pace and did not feel secure until I was back in my cell.
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Over the next several days, I came to recognize that, as Causey had asserted, I had indeed forgotten the basics of survival, and that no matter how I felt about the board, about the nature of Diamond Bar, I would be well served to pay Czerny a visit. I put off doing so, however, for several days more. Though I would not have admitted it, I found the prospect of mounting the iron stair to the tier where Czerny lived intimidatingit appeared that in acknowledging the semblance of the old man's authority, I had to a degree accepted its reality. Sitting in my cell, staring up at the dim white lights beyond the ninth stair, I began to order what I knew of the prison, to seek in that newly ordered knowledge a logical underpinning that would, if not explain everything I had seen, at least provide a middle ground between the poles of faith and sophism. I repaired my relationship with Causey, a matter of simple apology, and from him I learned that the prison had been constructed in the 1850s and originally used to house men whose crimes were related in one way or another to the boomtowns of the Gold Rush. The Board of Prisons had decided to phase out Diamond Bar in the 1900s, and at this time, Causey believed, something had happened to transform a horrific place that few survived into the more genial habitation it had since become. He had unearthed from the library copies of communications between the Board of Prisons and the warden, a man named McCandless Quires, that documented the rescinding of the phase-out order and conferred autonomy upon the prison, with the idea that it should become a penal colony devoted to rehabilitation rather than punishment. During that period, every level of society had been rife with reformers, and prison reform was much discussedin light of this, such a change as Diamond Bar had undergone did not seem extraordinary; but the fact that it had been given to Quires to oversee the change, that smacked of the bizarre, for he had been frequently reprimanded by the Board for his abuses of prisoners. Indeed, it was the atrocities perpetrated during his stewardship that had induced the Board to consider the question of reform. It was reported that men had been impaled, flayed, torn apart by the prison dogs. Quires' letters demonstrated that he had undergone a transformation. Prior to 1903, his tone in response to the Board's inquiries was defiant and blasphemous, but thereafter his letters displayed a rational, even a repentant character, and he continued to serve as warden until his retirement in 1917. There was no record of a replacement having been appointed, and Causey theorized that the board as we knew it had then come to power, though it was possible, given Quires' advanced age (88), that they had been running things for many years previously. From 1917 on, communications between Diamond Bar and the Board of Prisons steadily diminished, and in 1944, not long before VE Day, they apparently ceased altogether. It was as if the prison, for all intents and purposes, had become non-existent in the eyes of the state.
Once Causey showed me a yellowed photograph he had unearthed from the prison archives. It had been shot in the yard on a sunny day in May of 1917the date was inscribed on the back of the photo in a crabbed scriptand it depicted a group of a woman and five men, four convicts, one of them black, and the last, an elderly man with white, windblown hair and a craggy, seamed face, clad in a dark suit and tie. Causey identified the elderly man as McCandless Quires, the warden. "And these here," he said, indicating the other four, "that's the board." He tapped each in turn. "Ashford, Czerny, LeGary, Holmes."
Judging by their faces, the men were all in their twenties. There was a rough similarity of feature between them and the old men who met each day in the yard, but the idea that they were one and the same seemed absurd.
"That's so, they'd all have to be more than a hundred," I said. "They're old, but not that old."
"Look at the shape of their heads," Causey said. "Their expressions. They all got that spacey smile. Look at Czerny's hands. See how big they are? It's them, all right."
"You need to take a breath, man. This isn't the fucking Magic Kingdom, this is prison we're talking about."
"This is Diamond Bar," he said sullenly. "And we don't know what the hell that is."
I studied the photograph more closely, concentrating on the woman. She was lovely, delicate of feature, with flowing blonde hair. Noticing my attentiveness, Causey said, "I believe that there's a plume. Quires didn't have no daughter, no wife, and she got the look of a plume."
"What look is that?"
"Too perfect. Like she ain't a man or a woman, but something else entirely."
The photograph aside, what Causey told me lent a plausible historical context to the implausible reality of Diamond Bar, but the key ingredient of the spell that had worked an enchantment upon the prison was missing, and when at last I went to visit Czerny, I had retrenched somewhat and was content to lean upon my assumption that we knew nothing of our circumstance and that everything we thought we knew might well have been put forward to distract us from the truth. Climbing the stairs, passing meter after meter of stone, ash-black and broken like the walls of a mineshaft, I felt on edge. Up on the third tier, the ceiling lights shed a glow that had the quality of strong moonlight; the bars and railings were flaked with rust. Four prisoners were lounging against the railing outside Czerny's cellthe Latino who had spoken for him was not among themand one, a long-limbed black man with processed hair, his sideburns and thin mustache giving his lean face a piratical look, separated from the rest and came toward me, frowning.
"You supposed to come a week ago and you just coming now?" he said. "That ain't how it goes, Penhaligon."
"He told me to come whenever I wanted."
"I don't care what he said. It's disrespectful."
"That kind of old school, isn't it?"
He looked perplexed.
"It's the kind of attitude you'd expect to find at Vacaville and San Q," I said. "Not at a forward-thinking joint like Diamond Bar."
The black man was about to speak, but turned back to the cell as Czerny shuffled onto the tier. I had no inclination to mock the old man. Surrounded by young men attentive as tigers, he seemed the source of their strength and not their ward. Though I did not truly credit this notion, when he beckoned, the slightest of gestures, I went to his side without hesitation. His eyes grazed mine, then wandered toward the dim vault beyond the railing. After a second, he shuffled back into the cell, indicating by another almost imperceptible gesture that I should follow.
A television set mounted on the wall was tuned to a dead channel, its speakers hissing, its screen filled with a patternless sleet of black, silver, and green. Czerny sat on his bunk, its sheets cream-colored and shiny like silk, andsince he did not invite me to sitI took a position at the rear of the cell, resting a hand upon the wall. The surface of the wall was unusually smooth, and upon examining it I realized it was not granite but black marble worked with white veins that altogether formed a design of surpassing complexity.
During my first conversation with Causey, he had suggested I purchase some pictures from the commissary to decorate my cell "until your wall comes in." Though struck by this phrase, at the time my attention had been dominated by other concerns; but I had since discovered that once a cell was occupied, discolorations manifested on the wall facing the bunk, and these discolorations gradually produced intricate patterns reminiscent of the rock the Chinese call "picture stone," natural mineral abstractions in which an imaginative viewer could discern all manner of landscapes. The wall in my cell had begun to develop discolorations, its patterns as yet sparse and poorly defined; but Causey's wall, Berbick's, and others were fully realized. It was said these idiosyncratic designs were illustrative of the occupant's inner nature and, when reflected upon, acted to instruct the observer as to his flaws, his potentials, the character of his soul. None of themat least none I had seencompared to the elaborate grandeur of the one on Czerny's wall. Gazing at it, I traveled the labyrinthine streets of a fantastic city lined by buildings with spindly, spiny turrets and octagonal doorways; I explored the pathways of a white forest whose creatures were crowned with antlers that themselves formed other, even more intricate landscapes; I coursed along a black river whose banks were sublime constructions of crystal and ice, peopled by nymphs and angels with wings that dwarfed their snowy bodies like the wings of arctic butterflies. I cannot say how long I staredquite a while, I believe, because my mouth was dry when I looked awaybut from the experience I derived an impression of a convoluted, intensely spiritual intellect that warred with Czerny's drab, dysfunctional appearance. He was smiling daftly, eyes fixed on his hands, which were fidgeting in his lap, and I wondered if the audience was over, if I should leave. Then he spoke, muttering as he had out in the yard. This time I understood him perfectly, yet I am certain no intelligible word passed his lips.
"Do you see?" he asked. "Do you understand where you are now?"
I was so startled at having understood him, I could muster no reply.
He raised a hand, trailed his fingers across the bars of the gate, the sort of gesture a salesman might make to display the hang of a fabric. Assuming that he wanted me to inspect the bars, I stepped around him and bent to look at one. A bit less than halfway along its length the color and finish of the metal changed from rough and dark to a rich yellow. The join where the two colors met was seamless, and the yellow metal had an unmistakable soft luster and smoothness: gold. It was as if a luxuriant infection were spreading along the bar, alongI realizedall the bars of Czerny's cell.
I am not sure why this unsettled me more profoundly than the rest of the bizarre occurrences I'd met with at Diamond Bar. Perhaps it resonated with some gloomy fairy tale that had frightened me as a child or inflamed some even deeper wound to my imagination, for I had a sudden appreciation of Czerny as a wizardly figure, a shabby derelict who had revealed himself of an instant to be a creature of pure principle and power. I backed out of the cell, fetched up against the railing, only peripherally mindful of Czerny's attendants. The old man continued to smile, his gaze drifting here and there, centering briefly on my face, and in that broken muttering whose message I now comprehended as clearly as I might the orotund tones of a preacher ringing from a pulpit, he said, "You cannot retreat from the heart of the law, Penhaligon. You can let it illuminate you or you can fail it, but you cannot retreat. Bear this in mind."
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